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Goodbye party was awesome, and it was so wonderful that I forgot I was saying goodbye to everyone. All my aunts and uncles (the ones I like, at least) came out, and so did my cousins and childhood friends. When you've grown up with people, it feels really good to just sit back and talk about the past, the present, and the future. We are all about the same age, so it was great to just be in each other's company.

I really am gonna miss everyone, but sometimes I forget that technology can bring us closer. This time around, I'm gonna try to be better at posting blog updates, using my new webcam for video chats, and leaving my Yahoo/Skype phone number so people can call me. I'm also going to try to do some video posts so people don't forget my face. I think the culture shock U-curve should be a lot smoother this time around.

Still have a ton of things to do before I leave, but it's mostly shopping for work clothes and cleaning. Today my play-sister freaked out because I told her I couldn't feel my middle right toe; turns out I might be tightening my boot a bit too much. It's a delicate balance because I need it tight so it won't shift too much on my foot, but too tight cuts off my blood circulation. Since she's a nurse-person, she fussed at me about getting a blood clot on the plane, and told me to be sure to walk around every hour, especially since I have the boot. I'm thinking I might take it off for the plane, since it's cumbersome and not good for sedentary folks. I can walk without it, just slowly, and with a cane. Plus, the doctor says the more I keep it on, the quicker it'll come off. So I try to stick with that. Delicate balance indeed.

Overall, I'm quite satisfied. Some people didn't turn up, but I know folks have busy schedules and things. I'm gonna try to see as many folks as I can before Friday, since that's Pre-Departure Orientation, and I'll be spending all the time after that with my family. Tomorrow's Monday, so that gives me four full days before things start wrapping up on Friday!
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Inevitably, when you're about to make a big change in your life, things come down to "the lasts." I think, as humans, we need to be able to pick out a turning point in our lives, else our inspiration for doing anything slowly wanes. This morning, I realized that today is my last Sunday in America. My Sunday mornings are always the same: I wake up sometime after nine, turn on the radio and listen to the Quiet Music radio program, lounge around until it's over at 11am, listen to the Gospel show until it's over at 12pm, and then check my e-mail. I have a no yaoi before 12pm rule on Sundays so I can get my church in, and because of this, I've come up with a rhythm for Sunday mornings.

A part of me felt very sad that I will no longer be able to do this, at least not in the same way. In my house and in my dorm, my window is always on the right side of the room, and I sleep on my right side, so the sun pours in while I relax the morning away with soothing music. It's what calms me and gives me the strength to go on for another week. Somehow, I'll have to create another routine in Japan to do the same.

Thinking of that, and realizing this will be a week of "lasts," I sometimes have to fight back tears. This house I'm living in...I've lived here for my whole life, all 21 years, but there is a distinct possibility that it won't be here next time I come back to America. I certainly don't expect that I'll ever live here again. My dog is getting old, and I'm hoping she won't forget me while I'm gone. There's the life I have here, the friends I have here...I have to pack up and say goodbye to all of that. It's not the fact that I'm leaving that gets to me, it's the fact that I have to say goodbye. Once I'm on that plane and settled down, once I'm in my new apartment, in my new school, I'm fine, but saying goodbye is the most difficult part of leaving.

That said, today is my goodbye party! I have a number of things to take care of this week, and my flight leaves at 9:10am on Saturday, so this is the best day for a gathering. I'm expecting a lot of family and friends to come out, so it looks like I can get all my goodbyes and tears out of the way at one time. Good for me? ^^;;


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